TALK KOK.
I realise JC opens a whole new horizon of social life, be it renewing old friendships, making new one and relighting those whose flames have already died. Its so sad that in life we come to know so many people and yet we never have enough time for everyone and we can be so happy together and bonded and together during times of togetherness yet few months later we can all forget and lose that bond. All that is left is memories. And memories fade. But this is life, there is only 24 hours a day so let's treasure the people around us now because they can only be there at that time.
And I'm angry also at the sheer probability that seems to manifest from who is going to listen to my fears and secrets and all the shit in my life the next two years and who's shit I'm going to hear. The friends I have in the next month determines from a variety of sources: how well they did in Os, how the orientation program deals them into ogs, what cca they choose and what they study. At least the last two options seem less... random. But the first two are retardedly cosmic and improbable. But I always fail to realise GOD is cosmic and GOD decides that even the 1/1000000000000000000 probability gets to be executed. God gives you the best and I always, always, always fail to realise that.
I've come to stop worrying about the Os. And what I get. I hope this will hold true until the SECOND I get my results slip. Here is my life for you.
And I'm angry also at the sheer probability that seems to manifest from who is going to listen to my fears and secrets and all the shit in my life the next two years and who's shit I'm going to hear. The friends I have in the next month determines from a variety of sources: how well they did in Os, how the orientation program deals them into ogs, what cca they choose and what they study. At least the last two options seem less... random. But the first two are retardedly cosmic and improbable. But I always fail to realise GOD is cosmic and GOD decides that even the 1/1000000000000000000 probability gets to be executed. God gives you the best and I always, always, always fail to realise that.
I've come to stop worrying about the Os. And what I get. I hope this will hold true until the SECOND I get my results slip. Here is my life for you.
History Econs Lit Maths. The combination I've been waiting for in every Physics tuition class is pretty much confirmed. What's not confirmed is where. I have this super strong feeling that I'm going to get 12 and the more I think about 12 the more I want to die because 12 is not going to get me to VJ and I'll be in some other JC which is actually not as bad as I think it is but I can't convince myself its good. Here is the list of equations that can very well define my life.
18-2=16 Serangoon, Innova, Pioneer, Yishun
17-2=15 Serangoon, Innova, Pioneer, Yishun
16-2=14 Serangoon, Innova, Pioneer, Yishun
15-2=13 Jurong, Tampines
14-2=12 Catholic
13-2=11 Nanyang
12-2=10 Anderson, Meridian, St Andrews
11-2=9 Anderson, Meridian, St Andrews
10-2=8 Anglo-Chinese
9-2=7 Anglo-Chinese
9-4=5 Victoria
8-2=6 Temasek
7-2=5 Victoria
7-2=5 National
11 more days. 11 more days. I am freaking out every second. I know I'm supposed to trust God and everything so even if I get the worst score possible God would have planned that and crafted an awesome future in that score but the natural and my pride and my flesh and my weakness is preventing me from seeing that.
Damn. 11 days.
18-2=16 Serangoon, Innova, Pioneer, Yishun
17-2=15 Serangoon, Innova, Pioneer, Yishun
16-2=14 Serangoon, Innova, Pioneer, Yishun
15-2=13 Jurong, Tampines
14-2=12 Catholic
13-2=11 Nanyang
12-2=10 Anderson, Meridian, St Andrews
11-2=9 Anderson, Meridian, St Andrews
10-2=8 Anglo-Chinese
9-2=7 Anglo-Chinese
9-4=5 Victoria
8-2=6 Temasek
7-2=5 Victoria
7-2=5 National
11 more days. 11 more days. I am freaking out every second. I know I'm supposed to trust God and everything so even if I get the worst score possible God would have planned that and crafted an awesome future in that score but the natural and my pride and my flesh and my weakness is preventing me from seeing that.
Damn. 11 days.
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