No one reads this anymore so I guess it's pretty safe to publish something this explicit about my life. At this stage of education everyone's really mature and experienced with regards to networking and being friendly and stuff. I was reading the lit text yesterday night and it mentioned something about this acrobat's tits popping out during her routine and I was like shit, am I in school? Since when did school become so RA? Then it dawned on me that next year everyone in our class would be eighteen and that means in most of the world we can actually watch porn legally so what's the big deal with the mention of a lady's tits in the lit text right?

Okay, so my point is, everyone is really growing up and more expert at this friend making thing. Everyone has new friends, everyone is in new social circles, everyone is having fun, everyone is having the time of their lives, and if I say I'm not, then I'm really deceiving myself. My class is freaking awesome, relative to other SA classes. Everyone is friendly, everyone talks, everyone is cool. And then there's the OG. My goodness, the first people I knew in SA. If there's any nostalgia in this short two weeks of saintlife its the week of orientation and they are my nostalgia. Hence I really like them a lot.

But these people I just met like, what, two weeks ago? What about the friends from last year? Or last last year? Or last last last year? I freaking freaking miss them, but they all seem to have their own lives now. Just like me. Every facebook status reads blah blah "loves his og" or "loves orientation" or "why is orientation ending?!?!?!" and yeah I feel like that too. But there's this part of me thats longing for everyone I used to know. And seeing them so happy with new friends just kills me. But this is life.

I remember when I left primary school I kept trying to bring people back together. I kept trying to organize class gatherings, class activities. And then people stopped coming, and then I felt hurt. And then it came to the stage where I just shut everyone out and just started a new life in VS. And had awesome friends and then almost never talked to anyone I spent 6 years of life with again. Somehow I have this crappy feeling it's gonna happen again. Like now.

Of course there are friends who always stand by you. Because that's what real friends do. They stand by each other. I'm still freaking lost now, but some people make it much easier. Much much easier. So now I will just take a step back and enjoy what saintandrews has to offer. And be extra nice to my classmates and ogmates to make up for this sucky mentality I had to offer them.

OG21, 09A07 :)
Thanks to people who have stuck by, you know who you are!